August 12th, 2012 • 2:16 PM, Somewhere between London and Edinburgh

the whole ugly truth about what is going on in my brain

Dear Sarah,

Apologies again for my lateness. All has been rather looney tunes around here. I write to you from the train to Edinburgh, my friend and I are on our way up for the Fringe, which is very exciting. As always, I feel so lucky to have you as my friend. It would be amazing to have you nearby so that we could distract ourselves with wine and dance parties, but really, just being able to write to you and tell you the whole ugly truth about what is going on in my brain is more than I could ever hope for from a friend - it’s what’s keeping me as close to sane as I can get at the moment.

The last few days have contained nights out (fun), my friend leaving (sad) and a massive fight with my family (awful). The fight kind of made everything a little bit better though, like some steam had been blown off. I was told some harsh truths too - things I thought I had been hiding well, like the fact that I’ve been too scared of failure in my career to really give it my everything. Now I will return to NYC with a new focus, plan, determination and some balls. Will you please keep me in check on this?

It's really great that PH is honest with you and helping you find the balance - it’s so hard in our way of living.

I arrive in NYC in 7 days Woop.

Endless loveXx